1. |
Medical Malpractice
03:37
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It's Okay to be alone
Write shit down and grab a smoke
twist around and try to cope
Try again
I've lost hope
A carousel of words
it's something I've never heard
Gotta love the way you dig the pain
Oh no am I insane?
Maybe it's my mind
Some thoughts that I can't define
Tearing me to pieces
Maybe I should change my face
Afraid to check the mirror
Afraid of what I'll find
I know it's not the same face
I woke up with last time
I burn all the happy endings
One page at a time
I know I'm all alone in line
Until my heart resigns
Your eyes on the road
Which way do we go
Hide your pills and
Drown the anger
Shake your fist in
Constant danger
Sedatives and
Dirty thinking
Public shame is
Hardly Living
Love to hate your veins like wire
Dankest shit that I desire
Separate me
Always
Home
(Woo!)
Fools gold leaves me stranded for days
With your feelings of emptiness
And so I have to understand
Why you won't even call
And why there's never any answers
It's okay
To be alone
Write shit down
Grab a smoke
Twist around
Try to cope
Try again
It's okay
To be alone
Write shit down
Grab a smoke
Twist around
Try to cope
Try again
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2. |
Rainbow Road
04:21
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Why am I afraid
Letting you go
(Shivering up my spine)
(Cold touch is so haunting)
(This is my goodbye)
(When I walk away, please don't follow me)
Is it raining where you are
(I secretly pray that you're ok)
Cause I’m drowning over here
When you look up to the sun
Feel warmth through my fears
I never got to asking you
How distance breaks your shell
(Hey)
The only comfort that I have
With 2000 miles
Is we’re both alone
And I’m on my way home
(Twists and turns with no thought I'll make it back to you
I scream to God as I breach through the storm
I'm holding out for the sake of my humanity
Can you reciprocate the feeling)
Waiting on your answer for days
All the Grey never seems to settle
Letters stay lost
Or sold like scraps of metal
I’ll raise the point
(it means more than you know)
It’s beyond sentimental
Toe tagged
Jane doe scares me a little
Now is it worth it (Are you worth it)
To wait (for me)
For me (to wait)
In the position of pain
But sure what can I do
Morality will ask the question am I good for you
Whether it’s heaven or hell my choice is always you
And I’ll say fuck it to the pain I’m down for your abuse
I miss your conversation piece and all the laughs we had
Even if it was short and all up in my head
But fuck my feelings
My inner demons will push me on
So when this song ends Ima stay sad and drunk
So young miss villainous
Tell me how you feel
Were you the song in my head or were you fucking real
Bitter feelings cause I’m left thinking I’m worthless
I mean I know I am I just wish it hurt less
The only comfort that I have
With 2000 miles
Is we’re both alone
And I’m on my way home
The only comfort that I have
(Lately my days blue)
With 2000 miles
(And I always think of you)
Is we’re both alone
(And your answer’s always grey)
And I’m on my way home
(Because you never fucking say)
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3. |
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It's the way we never change
How it all drives me so insane
And every breath I take
Tastes the same as yesterday
Trying to relapse with mental strain
Fragile pain in your words
Got no place to call your own (Hey!)
We've reached the peak of
A subtle expiration
Your constant doubts and
A social misdirection
in a toxic conversation
Distance will kill us
New beings will change us!
(Miscommunication)
So what's left?
Is it us? It it them?
Cause I can't keep on
Sulfric tones in your voice
Banish me out to the void
The ghost of what was pulls me under
You can't save me from where you placed me
But are you hearing the words I'm screaming?
Why do you runaway?
Why do you hide your face?
Here we are
Right from the start
All of your burdens lie
so far away
so take all of your shit
with you
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4. |
23
03:29
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Numbers
Placement
Rest upon humanity
I am not obsessed
everything is...
Numbers
Placement
Rest upon humanity
I am not obsessed
everything is 23!
Please hold me under
Don't let me breathe
Promise me that you'll be the last thing I see
Lost inside the ocean
throw away the mask
(I can't feel my legs
Carrying the world endlessly
Weighed down by your dismay
It's okay to feel this way
we all blame our growing pains)
Let's Bury the Facade
Let's all have one final laugh!
and it feels like it's madness
Anger
Panic
Desperation
Your hearts screaming complications
Tightrope claims my expiration
Toe tag has my name
Madness claws at my withdrawl
There's sadness on the fucking walls
A pill I know could end this all
My day's going great
Hang my head cause I'm to blame
I'm riddled and I've lost my sane
to 23 we toast today
With 40z and a gun
It's nice to celebrate
Now let us dine on cake
Contains the lies we told
to make it through the day
Lost at Sea
Help me find myself
(another burial for me)
I remember everything
exactly what it's supposed to mean to me
I'm never really sure
I remember everything
exactly what it's supposed to mean to me
I'm never really sure
I remember everything
exactly what it's supposed to mean to me
Thrill kills my will
why do I feel?
You say it's nothing I but know you're lying
Where do you go?
And who do you know?
Caught until I wake up
But I don't want to go
Maybe I want to though
Time all slipped away then turned around to slap my face
It's cold today, it's found the way
to get inside my veins
I'm not gonna be okay
I'm saving face by being fake
I'm
not
myself
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5. |
Violet or Violent!?
06:03
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Where'd she go?
I don't know!
Through the door!
Follow her!
Don't wander off!
There she goes!
No remorse!
Don't look back!
Runaway!
You're always say you're not worth saving but your words are fading out
Her pretty eyes are full of lies
(Feeling tired and restless)
But the pain and tears here are televised
(Blue across your face)
Comfort nonexistent, safety inconsistent
(Turns into violet)
Pleasure is the last thing on her mind
(Such violence)
There she goes!
No remorse!
Dont look back!
Run away!
Fuck your faith in him ever getting better
She deserves better so go
(Yet you say that this is love
Yet it’s so damn far from us)
Everything's burning
Everything's falling apart
Where'd she go?
I don't know!
Through the door!
Follow her!
I don’t know what you want from me
You’re Always twisting tearing
pulling at my seams
His over reaction has you trembling at the knees
Whispering to save you
But I’m nowhere in the room
You’re only options spells lose
Painting your face with all this black and blue
You have battle scars and it shows
(all because of you!)
I can sense your fear from the tears on your clothes
(all because of you!)
Blanket your anxiety and move on
(all because of you!)
Find solace in my arms and I’ll be your home
(all because of you!)
Wish someone would save me
(Running home just to find her dead!)
So that should come and see
(Running home just to find me dead!)
What the fuck is happening!?
(Running home just to find us dead!)
I hear you screaming
I wonder what that’s all about?
The ground you stand on will fall through the cracks
Now I'm falling too
Hold you close as we fall to the abyss together
I'm falling for you
Stop what you’re saying
This game that you’re playing
You’re talking in circles now
I know what you’re doing
It’s us that you’re ruining
I guess I should straighten this out
Hey lovely, love me
'Cause I know that you're hurting and I got the medicine to cleanse you of your sin, that's him
He ain't shit
He's a bitch
So get the fuck over it
Stop what you’re doing
Don’t fight it you’re choosing
To ignore all we have
I’m sorry if it hurts you
Miss, you really have to learn this
And I know
You know
That I love you
Shieeet
Your phone begins to ring
I wonder who’s been calling
Your eyes they tell the truth
Your mouth continues lying
Over and
Over again
And in the bed you lay
Reaping what you’ve been sowing
You reek of kerosene
Such fragile things are burning
Up in flames
Just like me
Find yourself before you move forward
Tread this water cautiously
Pray for tomorrow and live for today
Carve your path as your past fades away
Warm your heart and save your soul
Purity tainted by a world so cold
Everything's dark
Down this lonely road
I'm reaching out my hand
To never let go
Please don't let go
I won't let go
This is a truth that I cannot refuse
(Breathe hope inside of your lungs)
Can’t seem separate what’s been glued
(There will be better days)
I can’t imagine what you’ve been through
(Wake up, the past is dead)
Your name reads dead on the news
(We'll get you to a better place)
Why cant I see what's in front of my face!?
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6. |
Live Like Crustaceans
04:53
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I wanna get you high!
Like I do
I wanna blow your mind
Will a gun do?
Melatonin to dream away my sane
(Sometimes I)
Kerosene to burn my memories
(Play on abuse)
Fell asleep in your arms again today
(You're still my)
But I'm always thinking ahead
(favorite thing to do)
Altered vision
My breath declined
Swarming colors
A toxic mind
Can I go back
To the moment
I wasn’t hanging on
By a thread
A chain events
All inspired by my first death
So it’s safe to say
I won’t be boring you
I’ll just drown myself
I’ll just find my hell
Take a second to look back on all the moments we shared
And all the of times that you cared
(And all that you’ve got for me)
I can't bare to go to war with you again and again
Lost in a labyrinth; doubtful of ever reaching the end
(Stole from me)
Locked and loaded and you're bloated from the ego that you're stroking, bottling up your emotions is gonna cause an explosion
The way you look in my eyes, it's like we already died
But I'm still spraying the flowers
Take some time or medication
Fulfill your lust for stimulation
Use me but don't hurt me
I'm just kidding. I love the pain
Why do you hold on to all that I do?
Your face is twisted
Behold my muse
I hear you scream
I hear your judgment
Maybe we’re just better off this way
Maybe we’re just better off
I wanna get you high!
Like I do
I wanna blow your mind
Will a gun do?
Melatonin to dream away my sane
(Sometimes I)
Kerosene to burn my memories
(Play on abuse)
Fell asleep in your arms again today
(I'm still your)
But I'm always thinking ahead
(favorite thing to do)
Fuck!
Hold me under
while I’m breathing
Scream so loudly
Why can’t they hear me?
The silence is deafening
Or am I insane?
Take all your love and take all your pain
I'll wake up every morning without your loving touch or the sweet sound of your voice
But the ringing noise coming from void
Has me feeling numb, dumb, and destroyed
The walls are crumbling down now
I'm lost and I can't be found
But dont pretend to be astounded
When I am 6 feet underground
(I feel like sinking and I'm cold
I think the river wants my soul
I feel exhausted, oh can anything save me?!)
[I think the river wants my soul]
The last thing on your mind ain't me or the remnants of what we used to be
This cold wet weather has you hot and tethered
But just wait til the start of spring
Dont wait for me
(I feel like sinking and I'm cold
I think the river wants my soul
I feel exhausted, oh can anything save me?!)
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7. |
Clover's Song
02:59
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Under the weather
Where's your umbrella?
(Do you can an umbrella?)
I've only seen the world in black and white
But you've changed the cones in my eyes
in my eyes
I miss you dearly, love
at times I like to reminisce
I wish you were still here with us
At least I know you're up above
Wish I could stare forever
Do you believe in after?
Could this be forever?
Couldn't be, couldn't be never
You sing so sweet and so silently
and with your blue eyes
tell me how we all die
I miss you dearly, love
at times I like to reminisce
I wish you were still here with us
At least I know you're up above
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8. |
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All but repressed it
I really should say
"No!
Get away!
I don’t have a problem, I’m just really oppressed!"
(No!)
I'm not your blanket of security
(It couldn’t be)
Making everything about the way you fake sincerity
(I don’t know how it could’ve found it’s way on...)
Wake up every night to loneliness so you call to me
All the roads lead the same way
(...me)
The end is disappointing
Such a perfect crime
Burned out my light!
You never have the time
But that's just my way of placing blame on you
for things I cannot
Overkill’s a must
Contemplate thoughts of levity
Suicide will come in handy
With a gun and a rose
I’m the fucking bachelor!
I'm starting to feel about an ounce of regret
Heart spirals
To hear you whisper
You’ll find yourself
Stumbling
I will come
To push you further
Down this empty road
or just stand and watch you
Burn away for good
Here we go
Down this winding road
In which we
Can’t go back
Well I know
What you seem to suffer with
It’s all these
Fucking consequences
That you never thought
I’d hold you to
I guess I’m stuck with being all my wrongs
And now I see I’m so deserving
Served up a platter of your own
I think my pain has started showing
Words just seem to
Betray me
I hear them laughing back at me
I wish I never would’ve known
The things that you did in our home
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